((Another I didn't publicly post... haven't read it since until now. Kinda has a whole new meaning in hind sight! Love it when this happens!))
I wish I knew the right thing to do
My heart is torn and I feel so blue
The word just won't come
Oh, what to do
If he only knew
Would he kiss me
Lay down beside me and touch my face
Make me feel so secure in such a scary place
If he only knew...
The fear that tells my heart what I can't do
The places that my mind runs to
The feeling I can't shake that it just ain't enough
Who ever knew love would be this tough
I wish I knew the words to say
I wish I could put my heart on display
I need him to know
Oh, what to do
If he only knew
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Friday, July 6, 2007
A Strong Woman VS A Woman of Strength
I LOVE this. Ran across it and just HAD to repost!
*A Strong Woman versus A Woman of Strength*
A strong woman works out everyday to keep her body in shape...
...A woman of strength builds relationships to keep her soul in shape
A strong woman isn't afraid of anything...
...A woman of strength shows courage in the midst of fear.
A strong woman won't let anyone get the best of her...
...A woman of strength gives the best of herself to everyone.
A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future...
...A woman of strength realized life's mistakes can also be unexpected blessings and capitalizes on them.
A strong woman wears a look of confidence on her face...
...A woman of strength wears grace.
A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey...
...A woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong.
Author Unknown
*A Strong Woman versus A Woman of Strength*
A strong woman works out everyday to keep her body in shape...
...A woman of strength builds relationships to keep her soul in shape
A strong woman isn't afraid of anything...
...A woman of strength shows courage in the midst of fear.
A strong woman won't let anyone get the best of her...
...A woman of strength gives the best of herself to everyone.
A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future...
...A woman of strength realized life's mistakes can also be unexpected blessings and capitalizes on them.
A strong woman wears a look of confidence on her face...
...A woman of strength wears grace.
A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey...
...A woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong.
Author Unknown
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
It's been a while
So I'm out of practice with writing my blogs regularly like I had been doing. Life has just been so busy that although I've longed to write, to express myself, to get it out of my head and on the digital paper... I haven't had a lot of time to do so. Soooo... sorry for not keeping you guys in the know on what is up with me.
So... less than 4 months to go til the day I become Mrs JD. Things have been hectic trying to find a new place to do the wedding... Grrrrrr. We somehow never made it to the calendar at RiverPoint. We have something in place to have the wedding at Wynfield Plantation... but I recently learned that an old farm house is actually available for weddings and receptions that is EXACTLY what I would want. So, it may be changing but at least we have a date locked in for us somewhere right now.
Ugh... budget, flowers, checking up on bridesmaids and groomsmen, catering, wedding vows, music... it's wearing me out!!! It's all swirling in my head like a toilet bowl in constant flush mode... the loud commercial kind that are in the mall bathroom and echo horribly... yeah, that roaring, sloshing sound it about what it like in my head. LOL
But I tell you what - God is good! He has continued to bless and provide. He has met us at every need. No matter how inconsistent I am He is always right there... and knowing that is motivation enough to keep me going. Without his grace and mercy I would be without hope... because frankly, I mess up all the time. But He knew I would never be able to be perfect and that is why He sent His Son. I tell you what... like Mary (John 12:3) my alabaster jar is full of hopes and dreams... my life, everything I am and will be... all that I have. And I want to honor Him with it as much as she did by annointing the feet of her Lord.
Well, tis late - I must go. Goodnight all!
God bless
The Future Mrs JD
So... less than 4 months to go til the day I become Mrs JD. Things have been hectic trying to find a new place to do the wedding... Grrrrrr. We somehow never made it to the calendar at RiverPoint. We have something in place to have the wedding at Wynfield Plantation... but I recently learned that an old farm house is actually available for weddings and receptions that is EXACTLY what I would want. So, it may be changing but at least we have a date locked in for us somewhere right now.
Ugh... budget, flowers, checking up on bridesmaids and groomsmen, catering, wedding vows, music... it's wearing me out!!! It's all swirling in my head like a toilet bowl in constant flush mode... the loud commercial kind that are in the mall bathroom and echo horribly... yeah, that roaring, sloshing sound it about what it like in my head. LOL
But I tell you what - God is good! He has continued to bless and provide. He has met us at every need. No matter how inconsistent I am He is always right there... and knowing that is motivation enough to keep me going. Without his grace and mercy I would be without hope... because frankly, I mess up all the time. But He knew I would never be able to be perfect and that is why He sent His Son. I tell you what... like Mary (John 12:3) my alabaster jar is full of hopes and dreams... my life, everything I am and will be... all that I have. And I want to honor Him with it as much as she did by annointing the feet of her Lord.
Well, tis late - I must go. Goodnight all!
God bless
The Future Mrs JD
Sunday, May 6, 2007
He's the best
I just got back from an incredible birthday weekend in Atlanta. My wonderful future husband took me to the Martina McBride concert at the Gwinnett Center Arena... which was FABULOUS, but not nearly the highlight of my weekend. The best part was spending time with the love of my life... and somehow falling deeper in love with him than I was before. For the record, I didn't think it was possible to love him any more than I already did.
Although I drug him all over Hotlanta and introduced him to countless people from my distant youth... he kept a smile and followed wherever I lead him. It's amazing how the small things really count... he impressed my Father with his thoughtfulness and caring... and most of all with the way he treats not just his daughter but also his grandbaby. I can't tell you what a blessing it is to have this man in my life.
We are a good team... and I've said that many times - but we came back this evening even stronger as a couple... more united, more in tune, more focused... and more in love. Growth... that is what it is all about. If you aren't moving forward you are moving back... and if you aren't growing together you are growing apart. But with that in mind I still can't fathom how I will ever top the way I feel about him now.
I thank my Heavenly Father for my JD! He's the best!
Although I drug him all over Hotlanta and introduced him to countless people from my distant youth... he kept a smile and followed wherever I lead him. It's amazing how the small things really count... he impressed my Father with his thoughtfulness and caring... and most of all with the way he treats not just his daughter but also his grandbaby. I can't tell you what a blessing it is to have this man in my life.
We are a good team... and I've said that many times - but we came back this evening even stronger as a couple... more united, more in tune, more focused... and more in love. Growth... that is what it is all about. If you aren't moving forward you are moving back... and if you aren't growing together you are growing apart. But with that in mind I still can't fathom how I will ever top the way I feel about him now.
I thank my Heavenly Father for my JD! He's the best!
Thursday, April 26, 2007
I'm supposed to be at the gym
I'm really supposed to be at the gym right now but after being on my feet over half the day I just don't have it in me. No motivation what so ever. So, here I am instead blogging... which is something I haven't done in quite some time.
So life for me right now is pretty hectic. Being a mom, a fiancé, dedicated employee, home owner and wedding planner extrodianierre is all very time consuming. In the midst of all the activity I'll be honest that the Lord has really taken a back burner. It's such a shame... so very sad... that the very one who has been so faithful to me through it all and blessed me with everything that I have get my left-overs.
At the end of the day, when I'm worn out an depleated of mental capability I sap out this sorry little prayer... and what's more, I'm half asleep before I can even finish. He gives me breath and life... and he sent His Son that we would have life more abundant... but I'll tell you right now that I'm not living the abundant life. Stress and frustration and busyness are dominating my life right now. Why would I allow that???
Bottom line - time to get back on track. Praise my gracious Heavenly Father above for a fresh start any time I ask for it!!! If you need one too... just remember, all you gotta do is ask!
Love Always,
The Future Mrs JD
So life for me right now is pretty hectic. Being a mom, a fiancé, dedicated employee, home owner and wedding planner extrodianierre is all very time consuming. In the midst of all the activity I'll be honest that the Lord has really taken a back burner. It's such a shame... so very sad... that the very one who has been so faithful to me through it all and blessed me with everything that I have get my left-overs.
At the end of the day, when I'm worn out an depleated of mental capability I sap out this sorry little prayer... and what's more, I'm half asleep before I can even finish. He gives me breath and life... and he sent His Son that we would have life more abundant... but I'll tell you right now that I'm not living the abundant life. Stress and frustration and busyness are dominating my life right now. Why would I allow that???
Bottom line - time to get back on track. Praise my gracious Heavenly Father above for a fresh start any time I ask for it!!! If you need one too... just remember, all you gotta do is ask!
Love Always,
The Future Mrs JD
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Let it go!
By T. D. Jakes
There are people who can walk away from you.
And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk.
I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.
The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]
People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.
Let them go.
And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.
You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.
Let them go!!
If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life,
then you need to......
LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains......
LET IT GO!!!
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth.....
LET IT GO!!!
If someone has angered you.......
LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......
LET IT GO!!!
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction......
LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents......
LET IT GO!!!
If you have a bad attitude.......
LET IT GO!!!
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......
LET IT GO!!!
If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him......
LET IT GO!!!
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship.......
LET IT GO!!!
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves......
LET IT GO!!!
If you're feeling depressed and stressed.........
LET IT GO!!!
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to......
LET IT GO!!!
Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2007!!!
LET IT GO!!!
Get Right or Get Left .. think about it, and then......
LET IT GO!!!
"The Battle is the Lord's!"
There are people who can walk away from you.
And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk.
I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.
The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]
People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.
Let them go.
And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.
You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.
Let them go!!
If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life,
then you need to......
LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains......
LET IT GO!!!
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth.....
LET IT GO!!!
If someone has angered you.......
LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......
LET IT GO!!!
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction......
LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents......
LET IT GO!!!
If you have a bad attitude.......
LET IT GO!!!
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......
LET IT GO!!!
If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him......
LET IT GO!!!
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship.......
LET IT GO!!!
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves......
LET IT GO!!!
If you're feeling depressed and stressed.........
LET IT GO!!!
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to......
LET IT GO!!!
Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2007!!!
LET IT GO!!!
Get Right or Get Left .. think about it, and then......
LET IT GO!!!
"The Battle is the Lord's!"
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
More on authenticity
Is there something desperately wrong with me that I don't seem to understand why people act the way they do? Am I so strange because with me what you get is what you see. I've said it all before... I don't get why people wear masks and hide who they really are or how they really feel. And what can I say? If someone doesn't give me the opportunity to address an issue because they never tell me that there is one... then the blame certainly cannot be on me.
If you've got a concern, and issue, hurt feelings - whatever - come out and say it! The thing is... there is probably not a person on this planet that I wouldn't like. It doesn't matter what you do or don't do for a living, how you live, how you dress, whether you are married or single, black or white or red or yellow or even purple. Idealistic as I may be... I love people. It is what I am commanded to do by Christ. Don't get me wrong, I'm not perfect and neither is anyone else. I have my fair share of issues just as there are things others may do that I don't agree with - and I may not follow that person into the mud pit - but I'll hang out with them and love on them... and it would be genuine.
Whatever anyone may think of me... one thing I certainly am not is judgemental. I could never be the one to throw the first stone - or any stone at all for that matter. I've been in the pit - and I still find myself hovering over it at times... but I'm determined that I am going to live free of that bondage - and in Christ's power I know that I can. Whatever small and fleeting pleasure there may be in what I'm looking at as I hover over the pit... I know it's nothing in comparison to the internal joy and freedom I have in Christ... and the sheer happiness I have as I think of the grace and love of my Lord... for ME.
At any rate, I'll point you back to my blog on authenticity - one that evidently needs to be revisited in my life at this point. I am who I am and I will not put on a show for anyone. So you can be garanteed that if I tell you something I mean it. If I say I like you I do. If I am nice... it's because I'm nice. You get the idea.
If you've got a concern, and issue, hurt feelings - whatever - come out and say it! The thing is... there is probably not a person on this planet that I wouldn't like. It doesn't matter what you do or don't do for a living, how you live, how you dress, whether you are married or single, black or white or red or yellow or even purple. Idealistic as I may be... I love people. It is what I am commanded to do by Christ. Don't get me wrong, I'm not perfect and neither is anyone else. I have my fair share of issues just as there are things others may do that I don't agree with - and I may not follow that person into the mud pit - but I'll hang out with them and love on them... and it would be genuine.
Whatever anyone may think of me... one thing I certainly am not is judgemental. I could never be the one to throw the first stone - or any stone at all for that matter. I've been in the pit - and I still find myself hovering over it at times... but I'm determined that I am going to live free of that bondage - and in Christ's power I know that I can. Whatever small and fleeting pleasure there may be in what I'm looking at as I hover over the pit... I know it's nothing in comparison to the internal joy and freedom I have in Christ... and the sheer happiness I have as I think of the grace and love of my Lord... for ME.
At any rate, I'll point you back to my blog on authenticity - one that evidently needs to be revisited in my life at this point. I am who I am and I will not put on a show for anyone. So you can be garanteed that if I tell you something I mean it. If I say I like you I do. If I am nice... it's because I'm nice. You get the idea.
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